生命谱出自己的曲调，或者圆润流转，或者荡跌低迷......

Everything will be OK! Believe myself! Believe youself!

很沮丧。很多事情都不顺利。看书看不进去。我只想找个角落去逃避现在面临的一些问题。我害怕彷徨惶恐！我不知道该怎么办。我生活的空间太过狭小。我不善于跟人交流，也不知道怎么跟人沟通。我陷入了一种困境。我害怕重蹈去年的覆辙。而努力拥有自制力。我克服了。可是我又陷入了另一个漩涡。我不知道我的人生灰色地带怎么这么多。我想要学YM等的幸福生活。可没有一个幸福人的陪伴而致使我很孤独、无力。我不知道我为什么要自己陷入这种状态，我有能力去改变的。而我却要一味的忍受。我清楚得记得强有一阵子也有过这种阶段。工作不被重视，情感路走得也不顺。可后来他变得幸福了。因为他努力去改变了。改变了自己也改变了环境，挣脱了约束。可我不想逃避，我还是要忍耐。因为我想要得到我所想要得到的，我不得不告诉自己我要忍耐。忍耐的过程好漫长。忍耐的过程好孤独。是我的选择，我没有退路。我不能选择去当个逃兵。我要当个勇者。我不能当个逃兵，及时困难依旧，我仍是要让人觉得我是自信满满地。我不能退缩，我不能让人家看扁。我要得到我想要的！！！我要坚持住！

today is singles' day.because i am single .i have more festival.but i do not like this day.i am so lonely.i have a bad mood.i have no friends to chat about.i have no interesting to spend times. i have no mood to read ,though i do want to concentrate to read in order to pass the exam. i am so sad. why i am in this condition. i don't know,maybe i can ask some psychologist.yes.maybe!

 

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I find a complete psytopic to analysis myself. i want to know more and change the bad character.now i have no sleep.because i meet with the difficult that i have to control and solve it. if i succeed i will have a good mood to celebrate the start of the new year. yes! i have to !

what is my shortcoming?

confindence is more important !

now i have no logic to find a good way to overcome. Give me energy!

it can make me clearly when  i talked with friends .and i can find some shortcome that i should improve.yes.there are many things i should improve. today i do know what's meaning of "sufer disgrace and insults" in order to accomplish my task. i do somethings which i can not to do before.because i should change myself to involve this inviroment. they all have clear direction.if you want to become a leader,you must be know what you should to deal with youself. i think i have found a way to change in form. first,keep reading.second,keep advancing.third,keep the friendship with friends. if i can ,i can! it is a proverb which i used when i was young.Least talk ,most work. i think if  i keep the status of today,i will be succeed. good! good lucky!

 

i want a phone which is one of Nokia  named 5800.So beautiful.and i can touch it with my hands and i can get on line with no difficult. yeah~

最近饮食不注意。下巴就出现了3颗豆豆，我在努力的消灭它。又是这么个时候。查了去年了看病记录。也是这么个时候。看来这个季节是复发的季节。我不能在折腾我的下巴了，也不能再吃中药了。我要靠我的意志力加上饮食调理。还有环境的颜色去克服今年这个困难。

1.屋子里装点橙色~暖色调。

2.一天一个橙子加一个香蕉加一根玉米。

3.不吃辣的不吃凉的不吃任何涉及辣的及冰冷的食物。

4.保持好的心情。偶尔看看韩剧调节下hormone.

5.头发不能去烫及染色。

6.买个5800Nokia!@

they who are my colleagues nvever remind me that i can do more work and make more money. and i think they are not my friends ,only my colleagues. yes,that's right.i have to do it by myself.and hope to have a beautiful future.

i think we are friends when we met in one or two years .we live together and play together.we are have the same income.but now it is different.Because our leader is WW who is a  miser.he can  not think about our benefits .so we only can fight for by ourselves. so the friendship is gone. i am a little sad about that. it is not a pure inviroment  with the south and north people. i think i can not work with the north. we have the different culture.yes!

I should do more to change about that .i should find some places where can give me happy and peace. now i can get what i want. i do not complain again. because i know i can not change it .but i can do something which is good for the future. i learn the E and hope i can communicate with people. i'd like cooking. i can learn some knowledge about firing.

i met my first lover in QQ group. i am shy and can not speak.so i hide myself. Maybe i do not want to the beautiful things which disappear. yes! my first love which is the memory in my deep heart is my treasure! i hope he is happy everyday and bless him. lucky!